cant make her fall in love with me

 fuck.....


she was so lovely.... i would go to every class i could back then.....just to see her some more.... we had like 5 similar subjects... lucky me could get to see her in all of them...... but still... i wish she would text me more and stuff... show me that she likes me back the same way i do all the time.....


she isnt talking to me anymore.... im sure its an excuse that we have an exam tomorrow and she hasnt studied so she gotta study for it?... nope.... even i haven't studied for it... we all are gonna pass anyways and she knows that too..... but she told me she wants to do mtech later and needs to improve her GPA.......i've heard if you really like someone you make time for them... no matter what...... i do that... she doesnt.....

i still miss her.... even though i believe i wont be texting her again because she doesnt seem interested..........


i miss sending her like romantic gifs in a disguise of me excited for some random stuff I wasnt actually excited about..... lol i was sending the gif because i wanted to do romantic stuff with her ....


college will be over in like 10 days.... she will be gone..... i would miss her alot.....


i wish she would text me .... like for fuck's sake her text is the only notification i wanna see ....

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